Tuesday, 4 August 2015


The first step to happiness is not relying on sympathy because a boy can only cry wolf so many times. It has occurred to me that you have to be in a deep enough level of pain for people to feel sympathy and this can often make people exaggerate their pain. The ideal solution is that as humanity we see the flaw in this and give me hugs more often but that is highly unlikely.

My scars don't hurt as much as hers,
That's why she and I will never be the same,
She will see both much more love and hurt than I ever will.

I must comfort myself,
Because my wounds are bandagable,
Even if the leave scars deeper than the wounds were.

Happiness stems for being happy with you lot in life. So do that. And if your not, change what you have.

Self help is a huge part of recovery, especially as far as mental health is concerned. It is easy for others to tell you that they love you but you have to tell yourself that you love you before you are going to get anywhere. The hardest part though is that that isn't as easy as it sounds. In my experience music and books and the wise words of others help but am I still waiting for the day that I hold myself in the extremely high regards my five year old self held myself in. Even then, when you think about it, I probably still doubted things about myself and so maybe it's an illusion that grew with time, or with my ever shrink self regards.

The one thing I read a while back that I am saving for a decades time is to eat ice cream naked. I'm aware of how stupid that sounds but when you think about, is there a better way to fully come to terms with your body image? I bet it's up there at least: eating food you know is bad for you and seeing your stomach bloat in the process and being fine with it.

I intended for this post to be longer but I do not know what to write and this is the only way I see BEDA 2 actually happening :)

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